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So I somewhat told dad what happened between me and Jason and I guess it is understandable why he was not on my side but his.
I did not account what went wrong between us, whose fault it is but I think my parents like him more than whatever issues I am gonna bring up, it would be more of my mistake of letting go.
He thinks it is just a small quarrel and told me that he hopes to see us patching back soon.

I wish I can simplify the whole thing and tell him that we won't be back to where we were for a period of time or maybe for good.

I can't help but cried again just now. Not as bad as that 2 days. Tears are moderating and sadness is numbing.
I do not know where to go, what to do at all.
Whatever Jason is doing now, I have no idea. He seems to be doing a good job anyway,without me. At the very least, I know he has work to cover him no matter how he is feeling.

Work. This is really unfair.So fucking unfair. If I were to work backwards and think the little trigger points here and there, I didn't think it is my fault.
The holes Jason left along the years are too damaging and then with some appearances of some people who shouldn't be there aggravated the whole thing.
And then I stop believing, starts rejecting. This is REPERCUSSION!

Anyway he is doing a good job in distancing himself now. I am left with nothing,seriously.
I won't be any happier if I didn't make the decision but now I am left with nothing either.
So fucking unfair.

Think after dinner, I would just drag my body out and get a cuppa.
I hope Starbucks has seats..good seats.